30 Day Shred Measurements Update

Original Measurements:
Bust- 38
Waist- 33.5
Hips- 42.5
Arm (left)- 12
Thigh (left)- 24.5

Measurements After Level 1:
Bust- 37.5 (-.5)
Waist- 32.5 (-1)
Hips- 42 (-.5)
Arm (left)- 12 (0)
Thigh (left)- 24.25 (-.25)

Measurements After Level 2:
Bust- 36.75 (-1.25)
Waist- 31.5 (-2)
Hips- 41 (-1.5)
Arm (left)- 11.75 (-.25)
Thigh (left)- 23.5 (-1)

Original Before Photos:

After Level 1:

After Level 2:

 

 

I feel like you can tell more of a difference after level one. Although the measurements from this morning were positive, I think waiting until after dinner to take the pictures was not the smartest of ideas.

 

I feel like it's all such a mind game and to be honest I'm sick of playing. I wish that I didn't care what I weighed. I wish I didn't care what size pants I wore. I wish I didn't care what my body looked like when no one was looking.

 

I wish I had self confidence in the body I have. I wish I didn't feel the need to workout so much to try to get a body image that I may never get. I wish I could stick to something and have the self discipline to not go off track every chance I get.

 

I wish I knew then what I know now. That when I got back down to 145 pounds that I was not fat. That gaining 80 pounds while pregnant is not just a bad idea for everyone it's pretty damn stupid. That getting back down to 145 over two years after having Isabel was more than a miracle. That stupid c-sections wreck your stomach muscles and no amount of sit ups or crunches will change it. That my body is a lot stronger now at 165 pounds than it was when I reached goal at weight watchers a year ago and was 155 pounds. That I have pushed my body to the edge and continue to push it past that.

 

I wish that I had the money for my next Jillian Michael's goal (Body Revolution). I wish I had the time and energy to run more often. I wish I appreciated my body for doing everything it does on a daily basis. I wish I gave myself more credit for the things I do to my body on a regular basis. Why is it that I can go on a walk during my break at work and feel like it's not meaningful because it's only 1.45 miles. Why is it I keep pressing snooze at 5:20 am when I feel like I could get out of bed to walk only to wake up an hour later to get ready for work and I'm more tired?

 

Why don't I have all the answers? And why do I continue to have the same body issues but not do anything about it? It's not a matter of whether or not I'm doing the right/wrong things. It's a matter of getting my mind off of what my body weighs and more on acceptance.

 

Wow... Okay, this post was not supposed to be more than an update. Congrats if you've made it this far. I'm off to complete the the last night of level 2. I will be blogging about it after I finish while I'm watching level 3 to try to prepare myself for tomorrows workout.